I am my Beloved's and He is mine - Dream/Vision

I am my Beloved's and He is mine

Published 23/01/2022. Given in May 2021.  You can also watch and listen to this Prophetic Dream/Vision/Spiritual Experience via our Videos link above.


I finally think it’s time to share with you a vision, a dream, but it was more like an experience in my spirit-man, which the LORD gave me back in early summer 2021.


The very unusual thing was that the whole vision/dream/experience, lasted a blink of an eye. Yet it has impacted my life immensely, every day since. And my prayer is that it does yours too.


The amount of emotion and knowing that the LORD Yeshua gave me through that split second is so much more immense than my words can convey. But I’m going to try.


If you are able to hold onto the concept that it all happened in a milli-second of a milli-second, that is also Yeshua speaking a message, within the message.


VISION/DREAM/SPIRITUAL EXPERIENCE:


I was being moved by His Holy Spirit towards a closed door. A plain wooden closed door. A humble door. It wasn’t fancy, there was no gold fittings on the door. I’ve seen a really beautiful golden thick heavenly light-embedded door in the dreams from Him. But this was the humblest door I’ve ever seen. And it did not have a handle on either side. It was slightly bigger than human-size. Made of natural beautiful old looking wood. Not worn out. I loved it. It was so wholesome, natural, unaffected by human hands.


Both the closed door and I were suspended in space. Yet I knew the door was immovable even though it looked so humble. The vision/experience started with me only a metre or so away from the closed door. I was dressed in a white tunic-like garment. Again, very humble. Plain cotton-almost-light hessian material. It didn’t reach the floor. More like to my middle lower legs. It felt like a plain slave’s garment, like an ancient Israel kind of garment. Just a square shaped piece of cloth made into a white tunic. I had no shoes on.


Even though all around me was dark like space I was not frightened but I was very alert. It was not cold but warm. It was dark but not completely dark. More like dusk. The only thing I could see was the closed door. My body is being moved towards the door by a Kind Spiritual Force (of God.)


As I am moved so close to the closed door that I am at the point of feeling like I need it to open - I feel, know and see in the Spirit that Yeshua is off to my right in space. I can’t see Him with my natural eyes but I know He is there. In a tiny part of a tiny split-second He looks into me from this distance away, where I cannot see Him but He can see right through me. I literally see myself as transparent. I can feel Him looking through me. He is looking through me into my heart, which I can see inside me and it is also transparent. It looks like it’s made of threads of white light and small coloured gems. (In another vision a few years ago I saw His angels come and give me this heart ready for what’s coming and I knew I was to guard this gift of a cleaned heart. In that vision I knew they would be back and would only come for those who had kept this gift of a clear heart clean). In this closed door vision I can feel in my spirit that He knows everything about our relationship. There is no time to speak. There is no time to think. There is no chance to present what I have ‘done’ for Him in ministry. That’s pointless. He is looking for intimacy with Him to be in my transparent gift of a spiritual heart that I can see inside me. As He’s looking, my body also no longer looks physical but transparent like a spirit. He knows my sins, my mistakes, my pains, my history. I can also see them as spiritual things inside me. But to Him it’s not about that. He is looking into my heart to see if found there is an adoration, a relationship with Him, intimacy with Him and complete dependence on His gift of a heart, no self-righteousness.


In the vision-experience He sees our intimacy in my heart, in this gift of a heart within me. “I am my Beloved’s and He is mine.” (Song of Solomon 6:3) And so He sends forth an instant unspoken Command. He doesn’t need to speak a word. But I can feel His Command. It reaches the door instantaneously. And the door opens. I am moved through the door in a micro-instant. Then the door closes behind me. It is impossible to describe how quickly that door opens, I’m taken through and then it closes. It all happens in a split second of a split second, from beginning to end. I had full instant knowledge that behind the closed door which is now behind me is Now The Judgment of God. Which I cannot describe! Proverbs 20:8 says: “A King Who sits on the Throne of Judgement scatters away all evil with His Eyes.”


But because of this instant realisation that He has commanded the door to open so I can be safe from The Judgement of God, I am overcome with emotion in the vision-experience. The first emotion is indescribable relief. I still have it now. I still feel it.


Also within an instant I was flooded with holy holy fear and awe of Yeshua. Because I knew it was only His command that had opened the door.


He isn’t looking for perfection because He’s not going to find it in a human heart. But He did find our relationship and my puny love for Him. Which to me is the biggest love I know. But compared to His Love for me it feels so minuscule.


So, the relief I felt is indescribable. The Holy Fear of His Holiness I felt is indescribable. And then thirdly the flood of thanks for Him is indescribable. I felt so so so thankful that He had enabled me through His Holy Spirit, to want to put our relationship first every day. Since this experience I have only wanted to do that more. I am even more in love with Him.  And I guard our intimacy even more faithfully and separate myself even more from all that is of this dying, wicked, deceived, insane world. “My Beloved is likened to a gazelle, or to a young deer, the stag. Behold He stands behind our wall, looking from the windows, peering from the lattice. My Beloved answered and said to me, Arouse yourself, My love, My beautiful one, and come away.” (Song of Solomon 2:10)


I still watch the schemes of man and woman in this world for short periods of time in a day. But it is like watching a foreign people from a foreign world speaking a foreign language.


This door can only open if He finds what He is looking for in our heart. There is no time to present our case to Him. He doesn’t need us to. He can see right through us. We are transparent to Him. We are spirit to Him. We are slaves. Either to Him, or we are part slaves to the world, or to others opinion of us, which is self- righteous pride and fear of the rejection of man – either within or without the church.


It doesn’t matter what I’ve been through. The cost of intimacy with Him is nothing compared to the relief I felt when He gave His command to open that door for me, took me through and closed it behind me. It was then shut between me and The Judgement of God. “Who is this that comes up from the wilderness, learning on her Beloved?” (Song of Solomon 8:5) I was safe away for all time from the wicked, hidden in Relief, Holy Fear and Awe of His Holiness and overwhelming thanks to Him and how He helped me to have an intimate relationship with Him in my life on earth. Psalm 6:8 “Depart from Me, all you who work iniquity, for the LORD has heard the voice of my weeping.”


Even moving towards the door is by His Power. Not myself. I owe Him everything. “But looking at them, Yeshua said, From men it is impossible, but not from God – for all things are possible from God.” (Mark 10:27)


The whole experience was in a spiritual place. Nothing was physical about it. I can’t describe the unit of time that the vision took because it was too quick from beginning to end.


For a long time, I thought this was just for me, both a profound encouragement and a directional to work on keeping my intimacy with the LORD God of the Bible the top priority every day. And I think it had to be personal first.


I still do life but I’m tucked away with Someone with Whom I’m profoundly in love and Who knows me intimately. I still teach online Biblical Hebrew lessons, I still need to get practical parts of living achieved. I still have a small, tested group of believers I love to be in mutual nurturing relationship with. But my favourite way to spend time is talking with Him. To be with Him. To enjoy His Presence. To examine myself with His Word. To pray. To listen to Him. To ask Him if there is anything He’d like to me to know. To rest in His arms.


The most usual way He speaks to me is through His Written Word, in loving intimate conversation. He is so loving, kind, good, holy, caring, protective, wise, gentle in His corrections, attentive to His ones. I am so in love with Him. LORD keep me so forever. Make my heart a safe place for You to rest as Your eyes scan this wicked dying world that has forced You to judge it, because You are Holy and You are Loving.


After many months of believing this vision/dream/spiritual experience was a private gift, He recently woke me with “Mark 13:32…” and after reading it, I knew it was time to prepare this spiritual experience to share, to encourage His bride, especially when she is weary and to reach any He would like to speak to.


Mark 13:32 says: “But concerning that day and the hour, no one knows, not even the angels, those in Heaven, nor the Son, except the Father. Be careful, be wakeful, and pray. For you do not now when the time is. As a man going away, leaving His house, and giving His slaves authority, and to each his work – and He commanded the Door-Keeper, that He watch – then you watch, for you do not know when the LORD of the house is coming, at evening, or at midnight, or at cock-crowing, or early; so that He may not come SUDDENLY and find you sleeping. And what I say to you, I say to all. Watch!”


Yeshua the King is described in this passage as the Door-Keeper. That is exactly what He is!!!  


And then as I was praying and asking Him how to prepare this, He gave me: “And these things I saw, And behold, a door being opened in Heaven! And I heard the first voice of a trumpet speaking with me, saying Come up here and I will show you what needs to happen after these things.” (Revelation 4:1-2)


This experience has also made me realise how the most important parts of us are our spirit-man. My heart was a spiritual heart. This will be encouraging to His bride if life becomes harder physically: “It is sown a natural body it is raised a spiritual body.” (1 Corinthians 15: 44)  “Behold I speak a mystery to you; indeed we shall not all sleep, but we shall all be changed, in a moment, in a glance of an eye, at the last trumpet; for the trumpet will sound, and the dead will be raised incorruptible, and we shall all be changed.” (1 Corinthians 51-52)


I am also much more able to love the people He sends, by spending so much time hidden in Him, than from out of a pseudo-Christianity that operates out of the soul, “worshipping in church at the deceptive altar of self-righteousness.” (Those are His words not mine!)


So, to conclude:


There is no human way to open that door. The relief, holy fear and awe and thanks that He commands the door to open is beyond description because behind that closed door will be the indescribable Judgement of God. The only way that door of safety is going to open for us is if He finds that intimacy with Him and adoration of Him in our transparent hearts. And He is the One Who gives us the ability to do that.


Revelation 3:10 “Because you kept the Word of My Patience, I also will keep you out of the hour of trial which is going to come on all the habitable world in order to try those dwelling on the earth.”


Isaiah 22:22: “And the key of the house of David I will lay on His shoulder, so that He opens, and no one shuts; and He shuts, and no one opens.”



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